The Hunt is on!

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 08:17:06 GMT

so i really never write here anymore, but i feel like it's time for an update...

I'm growing p a lot latly. paying bills. turning twenty next year... who ever thought. my teen years will be over and it doesn't feel bad. a lot of things have happend this year but it's going to end better than i've ever thought it could. i've got amazing friends. and most importainly a man who takes care of me and loves me more than anything i've ever experianced in my life. not even my own mother ever showed me what i found in him. no matter what i do he will never raise his voice. he will calmly tell me what he thinks i should work on and why he loves me so much... i'm telling you ladies hold out for this.

I have a nice place to live. I have food to eat. i can buy myself things if i want them...

my mom and me are getting along better than ever now that we don't live with each other... or near each other.

life is good and every day i wish for things to never change,

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 08:07:25 GMT

1. What do you order at McDonalds?
double cheese burger... or double quater pounders supersized!

2. What is your favorite color?
red

3. What was your first cd?
john micheal mcgromery... i was a contry baby

4. Cheap, what happened to question FOUR? ?
it saw your face and ran away

5. How many times have you had your heart broken?
1

6. How many times have you broken a heart?
none....

7. What was your first car?
2 door gray nissan sentra 91!!!

8. Did you wreck it?
ya by sealing it to a deadbeat////

9. Have you ever been fired from a job?
no

10. What color is your bathroom mat?
it's a tape... but it lives in the kitchen right now.

11. What cd is in the player in your car?
i had tora tora torance... but i think it's differt now.

12. Do you let people borrow your cds?
not really anymore inless i like you. a lot.

13. Were you in the band in high school?
middle school.

14. Coke or Pepsi?
coke... fer sure!

15. What is your Zodiac sign?
aries

16. Do you know what that sign means?
leader... strong indepent. true.

17. Do you have someone else's name tattooed on you?
whitney gradys...

18. Do you own a cowboy/girl hat?
no

19. Do you sing in the car?
ya

21. If you had to go on a road trip right now, who would you take with you?
victor and buck to entertain me with talking... and alyssa to buy slupees with...

22. Do you shave in or out of the shower?
the fuck? in

23. Can you wiggle your ears?
lame i wish

28. One Tree Hill or The O.C?
beverly hills 90210 bitches

29. Can you name all 4 Beatles?
hummmm can i?

30. What kind of toothpaste do you use?
the good stuff.

31. Do you obsess over your clothes?
not anymore i don't even own a hanger.

32. What color are your sheets?
they have flowers on them.

33. Who would you call if you needed to be bonded out of jail?
victor?

34. Do you know anyone that lives in Idaho?
yes cassie friend haha

35. How many of the 50 states have you visited?
4

36. Who is Jerry Garcia?
ice cream man?

37. Where can you find Phish Food?
ben and jerry's

38. Are you named after anyone?
someone on my older sister favorite soap t.v. show. hahaha

40. How many candles do you have in your room?
none at the moment. we just moved in i guess.

41. Fire or Ice?
ice

42. What is the capital of South Dakota?
ha

43. Do you use the bathroom with the door open if you are home alone?
depends. well now ya cuz my toliet room makes me sick...

44. Who was the last person that called you?
alyssa

45. Who do you wish would call you?
my sister.

46. Do you remember your 3rd grade teachers name?
mrs. prince

47. Would you paint the walls of your room black?
no way.

48. Do you wear sunglasses at night?
no

49. Who sings, I'm Too Sexy?
right said fred!

50. Did you have a VHS or a BETA MAX?
i wisj.

51. When you walk by a mirror do you stop and look?
yes.

52. Lowe's or Home Depot?
home depot?

53. Who gave the Gettysburg Address?
lincoln

54. How many Jolie-Pitt kids are there?
3

55. What channel is your TV on right now?
no cable...

56. What time does the six o'clock news come on?
5:59?

58. Do you believe in the existence of gnomes?
i belive in brenn the gnome!

59. Do you know what a gnat is?
no

60. String or butter beans?
string

61. What kind of computer do you have?
i don't

62. Are you addicted to Myspace?
crack addict status

63. Do you post blog's almost everyday of randomness?
i'm starting to.

64. Of all your friends on Myspace how many do you know in real life?
i general only add if i know.

66. Do you have milk in your fridge?
yes!

67. What time do you get off work?
6.

68. Do you drink protein shakes?
i should.

boys...

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 01:53:53 GMT

so i'm back in my hometown for the first time in about 18 months... it feels good to be home with friends and people who love you. I stayed away for far to long... Things are really good and i live in the nicest place i proably ever lived in. All i need is a job. i'm going to my old work tommarow to see if they will hire me, but in all honesty i don't really want to go back. oh well i can make good money there.

i think i want to become a waitress.....

lettuce or tomato?

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 04:52:57 GMT

so i'm tottally rockin the joan jett mullet.
ya i rule. um i have an interview at nordstoms tommarow. i really want the job, and another one with buffallo exchange later on in the week. i wouldn't mind having both. buffallo just for the social part, met people who have the same intrests as me. not that i don't love the friends i have right now. the are great.
it's hot right now like record breakin heat in oregon. ya.

this weekend is portland pop festival.
nice nice is playing. ya!

WOOT

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 03:07:35 GMT

back in portland
life isn't to bad

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 20:42:29 GMT

it's happening soon.

shit.

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 21:10:20 GMT

mario mario mario

love love love love

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 17:30:36 GMT

my heart is working agian.

wow.

3 weeks boys and girls

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 20:14:29 GMT

i feel sick.

give me hugs!!!!

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 20:07:59 GMT

so i told my mom i was moving last night, she seemed ok with it. we'll see what happens in the near future.

everything is good. I had some shitty dreams last night.

...

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 20:56:41 GMT

i gave my notice at work today.
so moving is offical, not that it wasn't before.

life is good.
i'm strong and havn't called.
i've taken up reading agian, witch makes me very happy.

feb 4th party.

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 22:23:17 GMT

so i keep saying i'm done over and over and over and over.
i just wish i could believe it.

but the more i say it the less it hurts.

I need to be in clifornia.
I need to be with people i care about.

i go out, alone. reminded of him. everywhere i go.

but the truth is. it fucking hurts.

everything will be ok

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 22:23:31 GMT

so i havn't used this journal for much more than bitching about my life for ages.

so here are other things.

-I have an awesome job
-I have awesome friends (even if they are 1,000 miles away)
-I'm blonde.
-my life will be ok.
-i love to chain smoke.
-i've always been a good single.
-I'm getting out of oregon soon.
-i'm moving in with one of my best friends.
-I will be happy agian.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 20:44:35 GMT

i hate feeling so alone.

NEW TAT!

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 00:22:25 GMT

umm so last night at 1 in the morning a radd lady tattooed the record player from the cover of bikini kills singles on my forarm. near the lightning bolt.

she has to be one of the raddest ladies ever.

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 22:19:35 GMT

SOOOOO over it.

i drunk dialed last nite.
it actually helped me more than you would think.

mario = gone

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:49:42 GMT

mario just dumped me.

while i was at work.

two days before christmas.

FUCK

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 20:53:34 GMT

What does your handwriting say about YOU?</a great

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 21:14:01 GMT

mario went back to california on a bus.

i'll join early febuary.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 21:15:47 GMT

i went to cali.

excitment.

now i'm back in oregon. trying to save money so i can move back in feb.
mario moves back in a week.

wow.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 17:14:26 GMT

fuck fuck fuck.

why can't i find someone who will just tell me everything will be ok instead of fucking with my head everyother week.

seriously!!

i can't take this whole i love you and we'll be together forever one day and the next I need to move back to california.

me and my mother still are not talking.

i just want to be happy agian.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:06:38 GMT

mario is so amasing, sometimes i wonder how did i get him??

i'm very lucky to have such a great guy.

note on the door

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 21:55:03 GMT

my mom left a note on the door telling me she would be back in a few days and not to worry.

thats shitty.
i have no idea where she went.

i have no phone.
and if it comes in the mail she has the only key,
love love love

give me hugs damnit!!!

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 20:34:05 GMT

i'm getting really excited about going home for two weeks.

two weeks from today i'll be driving down I-5 towards everyone i love and everyone who loves me.

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll also be working everyday intill i leave cuz i'm broke.
but oh well.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 20:29:01 GMT

jarhead was a good movie.

walking around downtown portland with someone you love on a saturday night bundled up it also nice.

he bought me gloves. and held the unbrella.

powells is the best bookstore ever.

i love portland.